I have just spoken to Paul. Dad has expressed a wish to make a final visit home and the hospice asked us to consider it. There are risks involved - for instance, he could die in the ambulance as he is so weak. But it's a no brainer really. When Dad left the house to go to Basildon Hospital way back at the beginning of August he obviously had no idea that he could be leaving it for the last time. It was all a bit rushed. So it's perfectly understandable that he wants to see it one more time.

There will be a MacMillan nurse with him the whole time, including in the ambulance, and Paul said he will travel with him as well. This is going to happen on Monday between 11 and 3. There will be no option for him to stay beyond that, no matter how much he pleads. At the moment I can't decide whether to go or not. I think I will find it too unbearable but then again maybe it would be better for Dad to have as much company as possible.

Him and Mum moved in to the house at the beginning of 1960. It was newly built and Mum was heavily pregnant with Paul. There's so many memories within those walls - so many in fact that we have decided to spend Christmas day (and maybe new year's eve) there, all together, for one last hurrah. We'll take sleeping bags and crash for the night. Roger is hoping to get over at some point between Christmas and New Year so he'll be able to say goodbye as well.

Must get a pic of Mum and Dad on here...